i realised i'm getting tired blogging "for the masses", having to be tactful and catering to the tastes of people.

i feel a lil angsty recently, having found myself embedded in several abusive relations with whom i call my friends. i feel tired having to explain abusive may be too strong a word for people who may misunderstand me and that i don't really mean it so hard. and i wonder why perhaps i'm the only one who feels this way towards certain people. i wonder why some people just can't be more courteous to others. i wonder if individual fulfilment is a priority, and relationally victimising your friends while trying to make yourself feel better is really okay. i wonder why some people will expect you to tell them everything, but over at their side, it's okay for them not to share because it's private. i wonder why some people expect others to be conforming and involved all the time, when they are the ones who engineered the rift.

but who am i to say, since i'm not a saint myself?